long time!
Man I wonder who looks at my site anymore. I haven’t written an article in like 2-3 months. I’ve been so out of it lately. Work has been killer. The next two years is going to be killer. This will make or break me. The biggest problem I have with work is the work. I have this worry syndrome. I have to make sure things go well, systems are up and running like they are suppose to and blah blah blah. Work never leaves me and it is killer. I guess that is how it is in the “geek” industry. The great thing is hours are so flexible and people are nice, so things work out pretty decently. So, if this next 2 years is a success, then all will be good in Warrenland.
So I was talking to a friend the other day about my love life lol. So, I’ve been thinking about this girl recently and I think shes kinda into me, but the more and more I think about it. For me its more of a lust type of attraction than a relationship type one. Thats what I see to get myself into. I lust more than I tend to love. The more me and my friend talked it made me realize that I only really ever loved one person in my life. Maybe that is why she is still in the back of my mind. I just wish I obtained that closure. There are so many answers I need from her. To finally see everything through her eyes would be so nice. A lot of things just don’t make sense to me when I put them together and others agree. Unless I have this delusional idea stuck in my head. I want to contact her, but I really don’t want to. I was so close to leaving it all behind, but maybe if I don’t obtain closure I’ll never close that hole in my heart. I dunno what I’ll do, for now its in the back burner.
On other news, I just had an MRI today. That is one freaky machine. I am glad I am not that claustrophobic, because I’m pretty sure people would freak out if they were. We will see if everything is ok.
One night I was in bed and I thought how lucky I really am. I haven’t really experienced lost of a loved one yet. I am truly lucky. I know its all part of life. We live and we die. My grandma hasn’t been doing so well lately and I night I was just reflecting on it and I was crying uncontrollably. I love my grandma so much. She helped raise me when my parents worked all the time to give us a better life. My grandma had to deal with my ass every day in and out and thats not an easy thing to do. I just hope everything goes all right for her. I love her so much