finally?
I think I am finally moving on. After some struggle with it, being stubborn and not letting go, I think I finally have some drive/motivation to move on. I kind of found someone I really get along with. We have many similarities and in my eyes we kind of flirt often. Maybe I am convincing myself of this, which I tend to do a lot. However, we are in this awkward situation/barrier that I don’t know if I can pass or should pass. That is the major hurdle in the way that I don’t know if I can get over and I don’t know if I would want to. So now I am stuck in limbo and all I can do is wait. But me having these feelings is a good sign. Perhaps I can finally move on and get on with my life.
I’ve rid a lot of the nonsense in my life. Sure it does get dull now, but without the stress and constant mind fucks life sure is better. I no longer have to put on that superficial appearance and I have my wall back. The one I let down for you so long ago I finally rebuilt. I am finally ready.