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happy new year everyone!

So after about a 6months to a year of debating, I’ve finally decided to twitter . Read it if you want. We’ll see how long I continued it.

So today I got my tea shipment ^_^. I have discovered that I don’t really like Earl Grey. However, with milk and sugar it is okay. I think that is how most people drink it. But by itself I can’t really stand it. The smell of the blend I got is amazing though. It is so aromatic. I got my new batch of Gyokuro, which is my fav green tea. It cost me liek 65 bucks for a 10z tin. That tin last me for about 10 months, so its ok. My tea consumption only jumps during the winter.

Found this pic by fabu. Pretty cool pic of a scanned broken heart lol

So I’ve been listening to the new Common album. It is pretty good. It is more like Electric Circus. My favorite song right now off the album is Gladiator. The hook is pretty good.

In other news, work is hellish. There has been some production problems, and I have to add more stuff on my plate. The already large amount of stuff I gotta do in next year is already insane. A workable UI using an API I’ve never worked with in 3 months. That is a tight ass deadline. I also finally get to redesign a project I was given when I first started. I added bad code on top of existing code that functional, but not designed very well. We’ve recently ran into bugs and now its time to overhaul it. I feel totally responsible for it, but I should part way with the code, since the project technically isn’t mine anymore. We shall see.

I already have a New Years Resolution. I really want to focus and dedicate myself to my trade. I want to become more than this jr lvl programmer I consider myself. I want to understand things in a more detailed manner. There are programmers that I talk to all the time and it just doesn’t seem like I am on there level. Yes they all have 5+ more years experience, than I do, but do they all have that giant ass lazy feature I have. I can’t be using age as an excuse. If I want to get to the level where I think I can achieve, I can’t make excuses for myself.

So I finally have come to terms with the things that occurred during Thanksgiving. What can you really do about it right? Move on and accept it. Accept the fact that there is no one to depend on. I can’t hope something might happen. I can’t have that faith in people that they will change. You can’t EVER change a person, they have to change themselves. Fuck it, I’ve got to move on. Move on to the next chapter in my life. Yes the last 5 years have been dark and lonely, but that shouldn’t dictate how my life will run in the next year. I really got to gain that confidence I’ve always lacked. Once, I do that, if I do that, things will fall into place.

surgery is done…feels weird not hearing out of one of your ears tho =(